Sleep Deprivation
Should I leave or should I stay
Should I sleep or stay awake
Should I flee until I die
Who do you believe when everyone is a lie
And I dont really care about nobody else
Do what I feel then later not give a fuck how you felt
Is it a shame for me to think this way
Who is to blame for all this pain and ache
Well its just me standing here so I should point the finger at myself
Nobodys being themselves instead they're clones of someone else
Watch who you're involved with kuz being around people who aint doing shit
Won't get a god damn thing accomplished
Guess all I need is me so I won't be deceived and
If it happens they'll get cover like public restroom toilet seats
They claim that strangulation was the cause of death
Probably because of all the abrasions I left around your neck
When your line went flat and everything turned black
That defibrillator couldn't zap you back
All you heard was CLEAR! Then seen the medic with a sad face
Im holding grudges till my grave won't stop till my mama wakes up
With all them bills paid
Knew I was meant for something even when I was still in her stomach
Can't wait to hit the game and have them saying that they aint see this one coming
I know I'm different and strange but thats ok I the new voice for those who feel the same
Like me or not I could care less either way
Should I leave or should I stay
Should I sleep or stay awake
Should I flee until I die
Who do you believe when everyone is a lie
And I dont really care about nobody else
Do what I feel then later not give a fuck how you felt
Is it a shame for me to think this way
Who is to blame for all this pain and ache
I wake up everyday and wonder should I just end it tonight?
So many unanswered questions like what is this thing called life?
Is it really worth being on a planet filled with confusion and hate?
See were all human so that means were part of the same race
Deaths the only thing at the finish line and that can't be undone
Its instantaneous id do anything to feel the warmth hug of a lost loved one
Thats one of the reasons why I think so violently
Ill blow your fucking head off and give your body separation anxiety
This ones for the people who self harm for punishment or pleasure
Never give in things will get better your mind is strong beyond measure
Dont let the pressure from depression compress ya
No matter how down you are I'm here to tel you mother fucker get up!
Every problem has a solution don't let you're produce excuses
For the ones who were abusive and made you feel useless give um a huge fuck you Bitch!
No more time to hide
This is the message ill carry on as long as I'm alive and even way after I die
Should I leave or should I stay
Should I sleep or stay awake
Should I flee until I die
Who do you believe when everyone is a lie
And I dont really care about nobody else
Do what I feel then later not give a fuck how you felt
Is it a shame for me to think this way
Who is to blame for all this pain and ache