Broken Down

Broken down, im losing all my strength,
Hopeless now, I can't pretend im okay, constant hell, i wish i could move on from all this pain, broken down,

Im feeling broken, like no one hears a single word I've ever spoken, an all these voices in my head are now awoken, why is it that everything i touch just starts eroding, fuck it no that ain't true, tell me its all a lie, tell me im giving purpose to someone before i die, tell me whatever happened to it doesn't hurt to try, why do i feel pain for simply being alive, everyday im confused, everyday is a fight, falling deeper with time, im slowly losing the light, really wish i was normal, not faking im alright, i really wish i was normal, not faking im alright, sit alone in my room, just barly gettin along, sometimes I start to question who would care if i was gone, maybe only my family, dad, brother an mom, while im still alive an breathing someone prove to me im wrong,

Why does this feel like a confession, like ive let somebody down for struggling with depression, how can i save me from myself, my own mind is weapon, that I battle everyday while staring at my reflection, i keep all of this hid, probably why its builds up, put on a fake smile but inside my body is cut, all i ever really wanted in this life was some love, all I ever really wanted in this life was some love, but i push it away, sometimes my life is too much, and that dont make any sense but somehow writing is does, im growing weak in my body, think i got no one to trust, so whats the point in me trying, when trying's leaving me stuck, do i deserve all the blame, does anyone feel the same, why do i keep on breaking down over an over again, start to wonder to myself if this is ever goin end, is this ever goin end, cause im