Goin Out Sad

Promise I'm not going out like that
Promise I'm not going out like that
When you needed me last week sorry I was sad
On the way home to you this time I got the bag
This time I ain't going out bad
I, I was looking at the burdens on my back
I used to just pop a xanny and relax
Believe me, this time I ain't going out like that
This time I aint going out sad
Now I'm looking at the blessings in my face
Now I know I cannot let them slip away
Now and then I feel the same as way back then
I don't think I ever healed when I lost my friend
I don't think you ever heal when you lose a friend
I don't think anybody's there 'til the end
Picking myself up again and again
Still I pop a little 10
Still I count the dividends
Still I stand cause I'm a man
10 toes down stuck to the plan
Flying solo, yeah I'm on my own
Lil' shawty askin, "where the fuck is phone?"
I had seen all of this shit inside my dreams back then
Had to get down on my knees, God wash away my sin
In the belly of the beast up inside the lion's den
In the beast of my mind it's so hard to get a win
Got a message where I drop my pride it's so hard to send
I remember I was doing a 100 coming 'round the bend
I remember when I weren't picking up my phone for no one, not even my kin
I was heavy on them pills back then but I still pop a little 10
Used to take the Chevy fucked up for a spin
Ain't going out like that
Ain't going out sad
Ain't going out like that
Promise I ain't going out sad
Aye, Yuh I pop a little 10
Aye, Yah I miss all of my friends
This time I came home, I got the bag
This time baby I came home with the bag