Blameless

Once more alone
With nothing to show
I was shut out in the cold
Life is unfair
But nobody cares
Everyone's fault but my own

I've always known I'm unlucky
Life always dealt me a blow
Fortune is kind and (?) to smile
On everyone else that I know

I can't be sure I remember
The stories I don't want to tell
Rewrite the past 'cause I find it too hard
The endings don't come out so well

Can't you see the trust in me?
Try to feel the past
Feel my pain
I won't take the blame
Comfort yourself at night

I'm not going to carry the burden
Or face all the pain that I've caused
Burn all my bridges and tear up the past
No matter how fatal the cost

I don't want to think
So pour me a drink
I'll drain every drop in the bottle
Try to forget
The chill of regret
And stare at my half-empty glass

I confuse ? with the truth
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I'll pretend i don't need a friend(?)
And comfort myself at night
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