Love Kills Blues

There was a time I couldn't get up outta' my bed
Laying there wishing bullets could escape out my head
Wakin' up to the pills, wish I could sleep instead
'Cause when I sleep I'm dead, that's what my cousin said
Eleven hours a day, wastin' on all my life
I figured this how it is, it wan' no rollin' dice
But I'd do it again, what is love without strife?
Truer meaning in this world begs a greater price
My life changed so fast, thought it would never last
But I'm still here now, undefined by my past
Being honest, I been missin' you every day
It's been the hardest, wakin up, and not seeing your face
I hope I'm doing this right, it's you I cannot lose
Every mistake I make, could become an excuse
But you still stick with me, I still gotta assume
That you love me, your love killin my blues
Ok I'm back at home, what I'm supposed to do?
Spendin' my hours with Kendrick, just thinkin' bout' you
Every I hear, I'm just hopin' for you
Every day we don't talk, and I'm still missin' you
Every chance we got, it never came true
But I still cling to my heart, I hope you see my view
Maybe I shoot my shot, hopin' I follow through
Then again maybe not, what if my fears are true?
My life changed so fast, thought it would never last
But I'm still here now, undefined by my past
Being honest, I been missin' you every day
It's been the hardest, wakin up, and not seeing your face
I hope I'm doing this right, it's you I cannot lose
Every mistake I make, could become an excuse
But you still stick with me, I still gotta assume
That you love me, your love killin my blues
I think it's finally over, that chapter of my life
I have an answer from god, I know my future bright
I hope that future is you, hope that don't cause a fight
I'm real from now on, everything that I write
I hate myself some days, I do things I regret
I know that's life, but, I can't help from feeling stressed
But the stress bother less, ever since we met
Every time that we talk, I know that I am blessed