I'm Not Ready

I'm not ready
I'm not ready

I'm all alone with racing thoughts
I fade in and out
Bright walls are turning gray
Can't shake this feeling, I'm stuck here believing
I'm on my own, miserable company
I'm tuning out, the TV's whispering
Eternal sunshine but never in my mind

I let myself down again

Time to let go
Grow up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)
Scared to let go
Give up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)

I'm out of hope
Lost faith in everything
Turn off the phone
Lay here in misery
Sick of my bullshit
I'm fucked up, I know it

But maybe I can turn this upside down
'Cause lately I've been feeling inside out
I can't shake this feeling, I'm stuck here believing
I'm stuck here believing

Time to let go
Grow up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)
Scared to let go
Give up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)

I'm telling lie after lie to myself
I'll never escape from this hell
I'm telling lie after lie to myself
I'll never escape from this hell
(I'm not ready)

Time to let go
Grow up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)
Scared to let go
Give up and get out of my head
Feels like I'm not ready (I'm not ready)

Time to let go
I'm not ready
Scared to let go
I'm not ready