not my friend

Every word I say's frustrating
I should try to just stop saying
All the stupid anecdotes
'Bout all the things I think I know
But I would rather sit here waiting
Ashamed to take my medication
Looking through a lazy eye
And call it all a weird fixation

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me 'til the morning

Maybe, I'm, I'm not my friend
Just someone stuck in a body
Ashamed that I've been hard to find
But I try to keep my promise

I celebrate misinformation
If I don't like the words I'm saying
Practicing my affirmations
Like I was told to do
But what the fuck does it all mean?
To map intentions on a sheep
And blame the person next to me
Or the universe for hurting me

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me 'til the morning

Maybe, I'm, I'm not my friend
Just someone stuck in a body
Ashamed that I've been hard to find
But I try to keep my promise

All I really know
Is I don't wanna know
What it is that I'm thinking
So cover up my eyes
Tell me that it's fine
And hold me 'til the morning