Ascent

Lift this flesh up to serve secret desires
The sky above and earth below, our home with the ashes
Of past laments, things left unsaid
A lonesome breeze, the day I left
Your lips on mine, the bitter taste
Of a yearning heart
That’s lost the strength to love, with regrets weighing down
I sink to the bottom of despair

All alone, slowly dying, there’s a lack within
Born of God, forsaken virtue, this divine flesh

Can you feel all that’s left? This sprawling distance
This sprawling distance, the silence of isolation

All alone, slowly dying, there’s a lack within my heart
Born of God, forsaken virtue, this divine flesh (is rotting)
Was I thrown into being all broken, or did I do this to myself?
In desperation, I cry out, "Please let this life end"

If I had to choose, I would want nothing to do with me
If I had to choose, I would want nothing to do with this
To do with this
To do with this

Lover, can you feel your brittle bones break
With the weight of words we once said in silence?
Darling, if all the lonely stars in the sky fell
I would still feel your warmth till the end
My God, if you have made me in your image
Then what makes you despise yourself so?
To be honest, I feel like every breath I take
Would be better off as my last

And how many more years of this must I bear?
How many more times will I numb myself?
To feel through just another day, another day
I can’t go on

When will I see your face again?
When will I see your face again?

Will I die to find
The true meaning of your smile?
Will the heavens open up
And show me the light of redemption?

Or will the never-ending dark
Be my only salvation?
Will I see your face again
Before my final breath?