​​novocaine

[Verse 1: homesick]
I just need to let it go
Been so long inside this room
Confess what I already know
Try to cut through all the lies
And all the ties
Before I go
Remember times
When my life
Didn't feel so slow
Another crack in the wall
Another rip on the carpet
Made a mess of it all
Wish that nobody saw it
Turned my back to it all
It's all just negative progress
And nowadays it's just all stress

[Verse 2: GRAIN]
Carry all the weight on my back
Don't hold your breath
I am not okay, this is all an act
Wake up every day
Mask the pain like novocaine
I don't have a clue
What to do
I just watch myself fall apart
It ain't nothin' new
I'm so used to not showing you my scars

[Verse 3: homesick]
Told myself that this would be the last time
I ran out of all the things I use to pass time
And last night
I was up thinking 'bout the past
And how everything good in my life doesn't last
So just take it all away from me
I don't want you saving me