I’m Different Now

[Verse 1]
I intellectualize my feelings
Then I get high to drown them out
I know the hurt is part of healing
Wish you were here to hold me now
All I can feel is your indifference
Back then, I thought that I deserved it
There's nothing I could do to fix it
I guess, I'm still learning how to live with it

[Chorus]
If I was still an optimist
I would just move on from this
But I, I'm different now
Forgave your broken promises
Yeah, I loved you through all of it
But I, I'm different now
Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way
'Cause I, I'm different now

[Verse 2]
Drovе by your house again last weekend
Remеmber when it felt like home
I think a part of me's still in there
Do you ever feel my ghost?
I only see you in my nightmares
Sometimes I wish that I could haunt you
What if I'm always gonna be scared?
What if I'm always gonna want you?

[Chorus]
If I was still an optimist
I would just move on from this
But I, I'm different now
Forgave your broken promises
Yeah, I loved you through all of it
But I, I'm different now
Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way
'Cause I, I'm different now

[Bridge]
I'm sorry that I wasn't older
Were we ever really friends?
I think I'm finally glad it's over
It still hurts but it hurts less

[Chorus]
If I was still an optimist
I would just move on from this
But I, I'm different now
Forgave your broken promises
Yeah, I loved you through all of it
But I, I'm different now
Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way
'Cause I, I'm different now

[Outro]
Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way
'Cause I, I'm different now