Miscommunication

I'm sorry
If I was misunderstood I would be sorry
If you actually could see my point of view
You'd be the first to run back into my arms
But I hurt you so bad
Oh, I've hurt you so bad

You have to understand
The insides of my mind are not exactly wonderland
And with no apparent reason the blue in the sky
Slowly turns into grey
My brain taught me this way
And I'm it's prey

(Chorus)
But that doesn't mean that I'm always sad
I have tried the madness but it fits me bad
It doesn't flatter me at all, not anymore

'Cause life has so much to pull you off the ground
If you just bother to look around
But then come those days
And everything goes back to grеy

Such hypocrisy
To blame you for the sins that are only to blamе on me
Even your kindest words
They drowned in my so called teen anxiety
It won't let me see
It won't set me free

(Pre-Chorus)
You had lived adventures that you couldn't tell
And I forged my own just to look well
It doesn't flatter me at all
Not anymore

Yes, we loose ourselves in green nicotine
But I only get a kick out of your agony
Oh we will be okay
When everything goes back

(Chorus)
But that doesn't mean that I'm always mad
I have tried the sadness but it fits me bad
It doesn't flatter me at all, not anymore

Cause life has so much to pull you off the ground
If you just bother to look around
But then come those days
And everything goes back to grey

Don't want to feel

No I don't want to deal

I don't want to heal