Masculine

Hey stop looking at me like that
All these judgy faces flying around me like gnats
You better back off it's my turn to bat
If I tell them who I am then they'll all start to scat
Try to act chill and one of the boys
Knew I was different and it started to destroy
Couldn't hear myself think over all of the noise
But at the end of the day I know I like boys
Try to show them my true colors
Do they really know I'm different from the others
Want to say it right and not push the wrong button
Sorry mom and dad but your son ain't masculine
Oh I know this sounds overdramatic
But only some people know it really is traumatic
Imagine knowing something that is inevitable
But once you finally admit it's quite pleasurable
Not knowing what my family would think or say
Maybe they'd kick me out and leave me to decay
Maybe they'd love me I'll benefit from the doubt
But it might go against them because they are devout
Try to fight what's in my head
Thought I covered up well I guess I could be read
Knew secretly all along lying in my bed
Just thinking about the day made me dread
Want them to know but can't seem to say it
Always ready walking in but can't commit
Oh God please just let me get rid of this burden
I need help and don't know what I'm werden
Try to show them my true colors
Do they really know I'm different from the others
Want to say it right and not push the wrong button
Sorry mom and dad but your son ain't masculine
The worst part about it not being myself
It's better than it was but I still need some help
Know that in today's world I should feel extra lucky
To be me back in the day I would've had to of been plucky
I know that I judge people too hard
But because of this I put up my guard
Think everyone is judging this
But when I look at my support I guess I am fortunate
Try to show them my true colors
Do they really know I'm different from the others
Want to say it right and not push the wrong button
Sorry mom and dad but your son ain't masculine