Relapse

So cold

No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold
I just wanna get the heat back and grow old
But my demons never see that they want soul
I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close

Not addicted but I got a problem
I'm a sinner when I feel it so I want a homerun
Stick to weed so you don't hit it feeling like the bottom
Wish I could only feel the ceiling not the fucking hot sun

Yeah bumming for a bottle or a blunt wish I never took the pills
I lost all of the love family got me feeling real
Lift me up more than the drug
I just gotta get a meal got my stomach fucking up

I'm conflicted I don't wanna live
Looking for a sign a reason I can give
Sitting on the ice looking up to the bridge
Speaking to the sky cause I just wanna live

No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold
I just wanna get the heat back and grow old
But my demons never see that they want soul
I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close

Guess this is a testing among me
Stretching my depression within reach
I should really get the message before I peak
Better trust in the lesson I might be

Slowly drifting back to peace know I gotta float to bring it back to me
My focus ain't the glass you see broken to the motions they attacking me

Not addicted but I got a problem
I'm a sinner when I feel it so I want a homerun
Stick to weed so you don't hit it feeling like the bottom
Wish I could only feel the ceiling not the fucking hot sun

Guess this is a testing among me
Stretching my depression within reach
I should really get the message before I peak
Better trust in the lesson I might be

No I don't wanna relapse I'm so cold
I just wanna get the heat back and grow old
But my demons never see that they want soul
I'm the person who can feed that I'm so close

Bumming for a bottle or a blunt wish I never took the pills
I lost all of the love family got me feeling real
Lift me up more than the drug
I just wanna go and heal want my love to cover up