Loner

I use to beg people to believe in me
Instead of cutting me so easily

so tired of hearing what I need to be
I’ll ask the mirror what it sees in me

I never thought that I’d be broken in to
The moment that your heart opens you lose

pressure bust pipes it was suppose to make diamonds

The more I think about it the more I think about violence

Looking through the Bible for a verse I can relate to
Romans 12:2 never let world change you

You start to hate yourself when you realize how it’s made you
I tell Savannah I hate you

Tell me what have I become
And Why am I so numb
Why am I so mad at everything I’ve ever done

Lately I’ve been taking shots
But this pain it never stops
I've got scars all on my heart
They called it love I know it’s not
I am a loner

sitting in the room with the lights low
Both of my eyes closed
searching for that fire cause I Never felt so ice cold
Music used to be my therapy
Now it’s the only thing that’s tearing me
Apparently
I ain’t strong enough to fight the battles that it brung to me
Dreams turned nightmares
Look at what it done to me
You think it’s fun for me living in this freak show
All I do is give and give but then they need more
The shot I always prayed to get wasn’t a free throw
Now my fuckin souls got a peep hole

Tell me what have I become
And Why am I so numb
Why am I so mad at everything I’ve ever done

Lately I’ve been taking shots
But this pain it never stops
I've got scars all on my heart
They called it love I know it’s not
I am a loner