This Pain
[Intro]
Bady! Bady! Bady!
[Verse 1: SCUM]
This pain of mine like a sound of a fast approaching train
Intensifies like a coast consuming hurricane
It makes me cry on the inside while my eyes are dry
I ain't no bitch, but it hurts so much I'd rather die
Why is this happening to me? It shouldn't be like
This, feels I'm ceasing to exist, could it be my mind?
Sick and consumed by constant need of intoxication
A blur occurring on the path to my damnation
Abomination, a bad example, someone deserving of a bullet to my temple
Someone they need to bleed empty, to put me out of
This misery, I'm just a fiend, nothing I'm proud of
Why would I want to drag my life on? Cry for the times that I have failed?
All skinned over like a knife and now my ship's already sailed
Why should I sink in Jägermeister? Watch as I drink away my pain
Blink and already I'm forgotten, planning and plotting's all in vain
[Chorus: SCUM]
Like this country, I'm an apple rotten from within
Losing a battle to addiction and consumed by sin
If I knocked on Heaven's gates I doubt they'd let me in
For this pain that I am feeling, there's no medicine
[Verse 2: SCUM]
I don't know you, you don't know me, but you want to judge
How I'm thinking, what I'm drinking, and it's getting to be too much
How I'm talking, where I'm walking, who I can and I cannot claim
As my homie, it is lonely, only hatred in this game
Motherfuck you all, I want to call in a hit
On the fake ones that make one like me feel like shit
Ones that hate, contemplate many ways they can break
All I've built, get 'em killed if I can, that's more than I can take
[Verse 3: Insane Poetry]
I want you to feel my pain, witness insane torture that just sits in my brain
Absorbing everything good inside, all the nights that I could have died
And it's insane, my depression gets heavy and that shit's contained
Deep within my soul eat me up, real shit, gotta keep it above
Been loyal to the wrong ones but that's the tip of the iceberg
It turned me into a whole demon, you can hear this shit when I rhyme words (Whoo!)
I've been to jail too and now my time's served and I've burned
Them bridges down with my fingers up so fuck 'em all 'cause I'm first
My mind works at a fast pace and steerin' clear from the rat race
Outside all you see is smiles but inside there's a sad face
For real, that was a bad taste but I turned it all into fuel now
My heart's cold as Antarctica and I'm actin' hella rude now
I'm too wild, drugs and all the alcohol that I could abuse
Sittin' here right in front of me as a devil keepin' me company
And now I gotta make somethin' bleed 'cause the rage in me is outta control
Basically I'm Satan's seed and the pain in me has swallowed me whole
[Chorus: SCUM]
Like this country, I'm an apple rotten from within
Losing a battle to addiction and consumed by sin
If I knocked on Heaven's gates I doubt they'd let me in
For this pain that I am feeling, there's no medicine