What It Iz

[Intro: Skit]
That person on the phone was a man inside this house. He said he killed his wife several days ago. Shot and killed her, and he was about to kill himself. He was dead before police got here

[Verse 1: SCUM]
Yo, what the fuck you looking at, you never seen someone hopeless
Someone that is struggling with life, tryna cope
This music is the only thing he has to relieve this pain
And so his brain believes therе is no forgiveness
What it is is a man that doesn't see thе light (light)
Anymore even though the sun is shining bright (bright)
Gripping tight on the handle of a forty four
Many nights, demons tell him that he's gotta go
Motherfuck that path 'cause it means you lose
Motherfuck me too if that's what I choose
But sometimes that is all that seems to ring the bell
That's when I can't control my urge to leave this hell
Nothing left, even though I know that isn't right
And this fight might be lost but what I do tonight
Will affect those I love and that insist I stay
Knowing that's why I get to live another day

[Chorus: SCUM]
This is only the beginning when there's no more meaning to the life you choose (Hey! Hey!)
There's a cylinder that's spinning in the game of Russian Roulette that you lose (Hey! Hey!)
This is when you feel like dying and no longer trying to deny you know (Hey! Hey!)
That this is over and you're lying to yourself pretending that it isn't so (Hey!)

[Verse 2: SCUM]
Yo I ain't trying to confess, nobody wants my confession
Longer than it takes to make five songs in a session
Flashing loaded guns at the ones I see in a mirror
Lettin’ 'em know what's coming, wanted to just disappear and
Blow out my brains with no regard for the cleanup
Feeling like a tweaker based on how long I've been up
I'm afraid to sleep, my dreams are like Freddy Krueger
Killing me as surely as a blast from a Ruger
I don't want this life I've been living for
Full decay is what remains I no longer know
What I know is that I no longer wanna strive
To survive only so I remain alive
When I'm failing everybody, feeling I'm bloody cursed
Know when I'm bailing on somebody that I love's the worst
Thing about a suicide I cannot justify
Though at times I don't want to live, it is a must I try

[Chorus: SCUM]
This is only the beginning when there's no more meaning to the life you choose (Hey! Hey!)
There's a cylinder that's spinning in the game of Russian Roulette that you lose (Hey! Hey!)
This is when you feel like dying and no longer trying to deny you know (Hey! Hey!)
That this is over and you're lying to yourself pretending that it isn't so (Hey!)