Amsterdam

[Verse 1]
And so it goes
I'm playing it over and over, I still don't get it
Till now, I suppose
Losing friends was careless, but with you, somehow I meant it
Last words on your birthday
You left me with a "whatever"
Should we have made a scene about it?
Stalemate early December

[Pre-Chorus]
Tryin' to sort my life out in the shower again
The way I miss you kills me more than missin' them

[Chorus]
Why do I keep dreamin' that we reconciled?
I woke up cryin', it wasn't true last night
You left me obsessin' over еverything
And now I'm a mess again
And I'm not pretеndin' to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
And I feel heavy
And I feel heavy

[Verse 2]
Spent time alone
'Cause you made me feel I would only ever let you down
I shoulda known
Why is it that I'm only seein' the bigger picture now?
Your cards weren't on the table
Would I indulge you forever
I wish that I'd have been less grateful
To put up with such bad behaviour

[Pre-Chorus]
Tryin' to sort my life out in the shower again
Nauseous when your mentioned by our mutual friends
Can't blame that I am breakin' down on lust again
The way I miss you kills me more than missin' them

[Chorus]
Why do I keep dreamin' that we reconciled?
I woke up cryin', it wasn't true last night
You left me obsessin' over everything
And now I'm a mess again
And I'm not pretendin' to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things
And I feel heavy
And I feel heavy

[Outro]
Yeah, you left me obsessin' over everything
You're just a silhouette of a friend
And I'm on cigarettes again
And I confess I hope you haven't found somebody to replace me since Amsterdam
And I feel heavy