1/4-Life Crisis

[Verse 1]
All I need is one mic
That's all a nigga ever had
One of the few things I used to share with my dad
But since I can't get it back, it's like a photographic memory
Because once I picture that shit like a camera I snap
Now my mom's fucked up & trying to be with him too
And even if she didn't she would beat me to him
Unless these demons in my head fucking feed me to him
Because when I beat myself up, that's exactly what they doing
I be feeling like he wouldn't bе proud enough
Like I ain't saying the Bеnto loud enough
As a kid he did say I wasn't fast enough, and now I got anxiety I see it's adding up
And life's catching up, what the fuck, I'm 26 dog
And I still ain't buy my momma a crib
Or buy my momma a whip to ride around in some tints
Now she can't even drive that shit if I did
It got me feeling like I fucked up
Got me feeling like getting fucked up, laying down never getting the fuck up
Miss the days when I could say I never gave a fuck but
Fuck it, I'm still spitting I've never given it up, I just

[Refrain]
Risen above all the bullshit they threw to me
Another day another death this shit ain't new to me
The only thing that I could do is stay true to me
The sky's dark but it's still the color blue to me

[Verse 2]
And do you, because there ain't shit you could do to me
Can't nobody do you better than you
Can't nobody do me better than me
Old girl did me good, did me wrong, had to leave
Guess I thought it was love, I guess thoughts can deceive
Watch your back when the pussy sound like pasta and cheese
What's love? That shit got lost when I was three
And now I even got to watch out for the cops when I'm sleep?
They say it ain't systemic, I'm sick to my damn stomach
It's fucked up out here and we stuck in a pandemic
And niggas switching up it's a cut off your man-demic
Thought it was time for us to boss up and demand leverage
But niggas throw they soul away for a shot at a new one
I been at it for ten years, what the fuck would you do
If your son was at home, crying all alone
On the bedroom floor, he wasn't warned about the stove
And when it get cold he can't warm up with a coat
And the world expecting him to go from warmups to the GOAT
Would you slave to the pavement or keep on paving your own
One day we all lay under stone, hope my grave let them know

[Refrain]
That I rose above the bullshit they threw to me
Another day another death this shit ain't new to me
The sky's dark but it's still the color blue to me
Yeah the sky's dark but it's still the color blue to me