Readjustment
It's been 3 months since it was over,
And 10 months since you've been gone,
I'm counting the days to the next fight that won't come,
'Cause it's barely hit me that it's done.
This was my life for so many years
Now I'm back to lonely nights and irrational fears
No-one would understand, or ever believe
How am I meant to be?
I'm so used to having people to save
Now I can't connect with other people my age
"You're the king of hippocracy,
A self-fulfilling prophecy,
Oh, what a disgrace."
They say, "You're a self-blamer with a therapy rec.,
A lazy kid with a god complex."
And maybe they're right,
What would I know?
They're normal, and what am I?
I don't even know.
Another sleepless night, I'm holding back tears
Trying to relive those wasted years
The parties don't help,
Neither does the booze,
It might, a bit, if it were with you.
I've been through things even adults never go through,
And now I'm stuck here trying to understand who
I would've been
Without all this sh*t
What's a normal teenager?
Never heard of it.
I'm so used to having people to save
Now I can't connect with other people my age
"You're the king of hippocracy,
A self-fulfilling prophecy,
Oh, what a disgrace."
They say, "You're a self-blamer with a therapy rec.,
A lazy kid with a god complex."
And maybe they're right,
What would I know?
They're normal, and what am I?
I don't even know.
(I don't even know, I don't even know)
'Cause I'm the king of hippocracy,
A self-fulfilling prophecy
And I can't make my way back to who I used to be.
'Cause I've got PTSD and a therapy rec.,
'Cause my loved ones think I've got a god complex
And I know they're not right,
I know what I've done,
I just don't know, who am I
Now the war is won?
This was my life for so many years,
Now I see you when I close my eyes, and I'm on the verge of tears
No-one could understand, can't say a word
They'd call us crazy for what we've learned.
I've been through things that no-one else has ever gone through,
And now I'm sat here still thinking that you
Could've been someone if you'd had healthy fear
Everyone seems to have moved on,
And I'm just here.
And I'm still here.
I'm so used to having people to save
Now I can't connect with other people my age
"You're the king of hippocracy,
A self-fulfilling prophecy,
Oh, what a disgrace."
They say, "You're a self-blamer with a therapy rec.,
A lazy kid with a god complex."
And maybe they're right,
What would I know?
They're normal, and what am I?
I don't even know.
And I'm still here.
Oh, I'm still here.
Oh, I'm still here...