Anti-Social (feat. Sporadic)
Why are you so antisocial
Because I'm trying to get it
Up all night
It's time to stay focused
Because I'm trying to get it
Use this weed smoke to cope with life
It's alright, I'mma be alright
Trying to cope through all the pain and trauma of a past me
Fucking with my present, if I hold on longer
The longer my future self will suffer
Like a car that's in the shop, heavily dented
I'm beneath the buffer, gotta hit the dojo
Hit a bag, collect a bag
And get my mental, my mentality tougher
I figgy fuck it, patch the wounds with some Teflon tape
Even so the scars seem to seep through
Based on some triggers, you can look at it like this
Associate people with fire
The closer you get, you know the rest
But this shit is fucking with my relationships
Ability to have a conversation
Social anxiety's been developed, fuck
Always got my guard up
I gotta be fortified
I can't trust a thing that people say because they lie
So deceiving, look you in the eyes
I got my hopes up
Open up the gate and let you in
Just to have it be a Trojan horse
There was a bigger agenda, a secret kept against me
Use me just to see what you can take from me
Heavily mistaken
If you think you can take my kindness for weakness
I know I ain't the only one who's seen this
Looking at your actions got me speechless
Cut you off the moment I see it
I don't need this
I ain't giving up on you
I'm just putting myself first
But that's how I am
Thank you for this enlightenment
I'm tapped into thoughts, by sporadic
Looking for my addy like an addict
I grab it when I'm saddest
My trauma is past , I'm passed it
Assist of the passion, gaining traction
When I snap into action
To see if I smile, it's been a while
Traumatized a pile of life's crap
I strike back with no gats
A rose from concrete's crack
A musical profession, a life lesson
The thorn can be a blessing if you lessen the pain you let in
From not regretting, just stepping another direction
Not letting others' perception change your progression
From an obsession, I'm obsessed in
Life is a possession, I'm a guest in
Opening more doors to stick to the cores
I value more, honestly it pours from sores
No remorse when I force, engorge in the course
The source forms from my torso
I learn slow, but I learn though
Spotted those from friends to foes
In time it shows, when you low and you need em most
Lost souls, they ghost, you don't need a bro
Who provokes through the scope
Your triggers and make em bigger
You sicker like a bottle to your liver
An ambulance deliver
Find the real ones quicker
Time tickers, when hate is thicker
So don't feed it like a Snickers
Sporadical kicker, sabbatical mixer
Not a runt, I am the pick of the litter
I refuse to stay still
When I could be something that's bigger
Transition from a negative balance to seven figures
My life is a twister
The more I give her, the quicker the storm simmers
Thorns in hands blister
Growth through summer's and winter
Never been a quitter, so feeling a winner
Working to becoming a winner
Getting better every deliver
Life depends on what you feed it
And what you give her