Open Diary

I promise you
That you will never meet
Another person
As mentally tough
As you
In your entire life
And she hasn’t
And she never will
I got love for me
That’s all that matters
If they cared it wouldn’t happen
It’s so easy to get trapped in
How I’m feeling
If I’m worth it
I’m not perfect
Still working on discernment
It’s just lessons that I’m learning
Refocus
Stop trying to be chosen
Cause it only leaves you broken
feeling hopeless
Would they notice
You at your lowest
Not until it gets explosive
Till the table starts turning
But that’s over now
And I’m stronger now
but am I happy
Don’t know the answer sadly
One life to live
And I got love to give
All you see is hate so you won’t elevate
All the love I gave
They took it and abused it
All my fighting words
I put it to the music
Forget my feelings
I got a deeper meaning
I’m praying for some healing
Cause I need it
I’m addicted to the music it’s my drug
I gotta have it
Before I panic
Start wreaking havoc
I’m leaving damage
Call it tragic
I do what I imagined
Saw the vision felt the passion
But I was craving the attention
From the lessons
But that’s over now
And I’m stronger now
but am I happy
Don’t know the answer sadly
One life to live
And I got love to give
All you see is hate so you won’t elevate
All the love I gave
They took it and abused it
All my fighting words
I put it to the music
Forget my feelings
I got a deeper meaning
I’m praying for some healing
Cause I need it
I’m addicted to the music it’s my drug
I gotta have it