This Ain't Going Well

This ain't going well
I wish that we had been a better version of us
You can't love somebody who you didn't ever really trust

I keep wondering about the plans I had
I keep wondering what I do with them

This is the part where I remember
All the beautiful things you've said and done
Even though I know that's just my head messing with my heart again

I keep wondering about the plans I had
I keep wondering what I do with them

When this started, I was sure that
This would be easy, I was looking for easy
When it blew up, it messed me up
I think it was all me, I didn't make it easy
But I

I keep wondering about the plans I had
I keep wondering what I do with them
I keep wondering about the plans I had
I keep wondering what I do with them

This ain't going well
I wish that I had been a better version of me
But I can't love somebody who doesn't love the worst parts of me