Complicated Place

I'm fully like manifesting, I'm going to make it, I'm going to make it
Don't take life for granted, that's what they told me before they let my depression ever start landing
It's starting to hurt me, it's starting to hurt me
Don't take life for granted, that's what they told me before they let my depression ever start landing
Now whats on my mind?, suicide and pressure

Thing we call life is draining, my will to live is straining
On my heart and I'm failing, thoughts in my brain and I'm racing
Back in the day, sometime in year six, all my friends think I'm just a kid

Helpless and useless, that's what they think, they fed me lies till the age one-six
Now I'm failing to see, failing to succeed. Darkness grows ever so inside me
Because you left so happily, you broke my heart so casually
Thoughts trap me away and it hurts that I hurt others

Finding snakes I used to call brothers, fading away and I'm hearing colours
You're not my brother
Why is it normal for a kid to have these thoughts
Everyone looked but nobody saw, saw that I'm hurt after what I was taught

Treat a girl like a queen and the pain that it brought, should've never talked
They told me to run but they never sought, sought for the answers, they called me a bore
Every time I would speak, they would run off and close my door
Don't take life for granted

I'm fully manifesting it, I'm going to make it
Don't take life for granted
It pains me to see, my friends they don't succeed
But they don't want to hear from me, so I keep them near till they reach their peace

But that's never the case for me, I can name a few
But is that enough to keep me away? The trigger on my gun
Screaming Lord whoever prayed on my downfall, they have won
I have nothing left, it's me and my thoughts and it's pain in my chest

Life is a cop and it's making an arrest, right before the chance I can catch my breath
Wake up, check my phone, realize that I'm all alone
No check ups, how are you bro
Why weren't you at school? Really I don't know

Making songs with a beat and a phone
Dear Lord please let me go, they got a forever hold
On my soul, please Lord I just want to make it home
I'm fully manifesting it, I'm going to make it

I'm going to make it
Don't take life for granted
That's what they told me before they let my depression ever start landing
It's starting to hurt me, it's starting to hurt me

Don't take life for granted
That's what they told me before they let my depression ever start landing
Now it's on my mind, suicidal
I'm starting to have dreams and like i see myself on a big stage, with a big crowd

I'm going to make it bro