​here, as in not back then, when we knew each other and i could have been nicer

[Verse 1]
Never occurred to me that here I stand
I’m so sorry
I was innocent but a common crook
Playing war to feel understood
And you could’ve known better
Eighteen is all stormy weather
Here we are so much silence later
Do you hate me or are we strangers?

[Chorus]
I chose to crash every single time
And I left you there with a peace of mind
I chose to crash every single time
If you called my name I didn't hear it right
I chose to crash every single time
It’s easier when there’s no goodbye
I chose to crash every single time
But I’m walking back to apologize

[Verse 2]
Others have called me sweet
But we know the truth and it’s hard to keep
I left my heart in a sentence scrawled on a page
I lost on a phone call
And you could’ve known better
I was eighteen and under pressure
Now that I am the bad guy
Do you recall the look in my eyes?

[Chorus]
I chose to crash every single time
'Cause I was scared of what I would find
I chose to crash every single time
I got too close to crossing the line
I chose to crash every single time
Yes I wanted to leave it behind
I chose to crash every single time
Didn’t think about you as the years went by
I chose to crash every single time
And I left you there with a peace of mind
I chose to crash every single time
If you called my name I didn’t hear it right
I chose to crash every single time
It’s easier when there’s no goodbye
I chose to crash every single time
But I’m walking back to apologize