Fed to the Lions

I shade myself into the backlight of a room
My shadow apes my movements, the needle and the spoon

Now I can't sleep without going numb, so many nightmares forming
Left alone, with no force for resistance
Don't you dare tell anyone
Raped, abused, and shaken
Dark-minded maturation
Closed fist domination (I'm still alive)

Cold vengeance, just for fun
Sickle to brains the sum
Gut string violins, dark movement begins
Closing haunted hymns
I'll stab your eyes I'll tear you apart
Left in a unmarked burial mound
Quartered and bound to the corpse of a pig
You'll be together underground

The scenes replay, haunting me again
The killer and the wound, bound in an endless dance

So tell me how the fuck am I supposed to move on?
Please tell me how to forgive those who took my youth away

I prayed to a God that never was
My screams fell on deaf ears
I'm alone with my time in hell
If I can't die then please let me sleep

Sad little man, born of sin
Blood dripping from your blade
Ask your God why you're alive
You only wanted to be saved
No salvation for the rapist priest, so many lies, so many truths to bend
Now you can fuck yourself with your cross
You're gonna burn in your fucking hell

So tell me how the fuck am I supposed to move on?
Please tell me how to forgive those who took my youth away

Please just let me sleep again, again

I prayed to a God that never was
My screams fell on deaf ears
I'm alone with my time in hell
If I can't die then please let me sleep

Scars that never will heal over
They always remain
They always remain

I prayed to a God that never was
My screams fell on deaf ears
I'm alone with my time in hell
If I can't die then please let me sleep