Forbidden confessions

How do I tell them I’m all for both sides
When I don’t even know the truth
I’m sitting down here just so confused
Their faces facing me
Filling me with grim
The lightbulb over my head getting dim

Maybe I’m overthinking
'Cause I don’t know what I should be thinking

Would I be thought of less than
Anyone else
I cannot come out
Oh no

It just takes a little thought
To figure out this lie I fought through
What does it mean anyway?

It got a little too loud last night
After I confessed my analysis
I should stop putting my mouth where my mind is
The room I share gets duller with every day
Side-eyed with their disgust
I can see it in their faces

Maybe I’m overthinking
'Cause I don’t know what I should be thinking

Would I be thought of less than
Anyone else
I cannot come out
Oh no

It just takes a little thought
To figure out this lie I fought through
What does it mean anyway?

I’m never gonna come out
I can’t come out
I’m never gonna come out
I can’t come out

Please
Let me win this race