Finally Understand

Creeping up on the hours
That will interfere with my day tomorrow
I don't think I'll ever leave my bed

It's not as if the list compiled
Will be touched upon no work, no trial
I'm starting to feel all the days pass

When the men return
In a binge of self medication
Ghost of me drenches you with love
And that twist in my chemistry
Unwinds and comes undone

And return to that useless soul
That useless soul of silence

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious

When I kiss you goodnight
It doesn't matter just how quiet
I'll read it all in the glaze of your eyes

You're not happy, haven't been
For weeks, months on end
And still you spend every waking moment with me

All the years that were pleasurable
Are now holding you prisoner
And everyday you wait for them to return

And words start scrambling
A place where man and oxygen
As I fail to say what you
What you, what you need to hear
Well, you deserve, you deserve someone better

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
Why you left seemed so

Guess it's hard to see, I guess it's hard to believe
That there was once so much room to breathe
I've been leaning on you for over three years
You're down on one leg slipping in a river of tears

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
Finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so

I finally understand
How could I have been so blind
I finally understand
How could I have been so blind

Yes, you deserve, you deserve someone better