The Next Time You Win
Don't believe everything you read
The light can change so subtly
You took it hard that you were on the ropes
Now you can't find any grace in the grace notes
But there's not one heart here that's counting on you
At last that blood's run clear
That fountain of youth
And you'll head home tonight
And file your sins smooth again
Until the next time you win
Until the next time you win
The filter of hindsight is so unflattering
So you choose to believe that you've shed that old skin
But it's just mark two
Your story retold
Spinning your little black heart back into gold
But there's not one heart here that's counting on you
At last that blood's run clear
That fountain of youth
And you'll head home tonight
And file your sins smooth again
Until the next time you win
Until the next time you win
I'm not sure when it was
Maybe a Thursday?
That I realised the real way of things
I'd spent so long looking down at my hands
Not meeting the eye of the day
Shocked and locked and bubbled in grief and tired
So tired
And for one small moment there was a breeze
Some echo from a moment that wasn't here
It was light
It was free
And I thought if I followed
Maybe it could take me too
And the truth is a torch
And a sword
Its a fist
It's the defiant jaw
The hand on hips
The superhero stance
But the real way of things is old
Its slow and deliberate
It's everywhere
The boot to the ant
The hurricane to the hummingbird
And it knows no other way but first
And it sits at the same backs of those it has always shielded
Builds fortress walls and lends the lead weight of history to their silence
Until the silence of guilt
Becomes the defence
Becomes the triumph
Tale as old as time
How will the tables turn
How do we shift this paradigm?
And I've read more doubts about me than I've had about myself
But I'm still here
I'm still tired
But I wont stop
For now
And you?
Question for sure
But question everything
Not just what makes you hurt
But what keeps you warm
What keeps you full
What keeps you quiet
And believe her
Believe her
Believer
Before we lose another hummingbird to the wind
Before the next time they win
Until the next time you win
Until the next time you win
Until the next time they win
Because the next time we win