Not Alone

I'm walking out the darkness
And I barely made it
Hope this reaches all the people
Who cannot escape it
I was just like you, I was young like you
I was tryna numb the pain
I was afraid of facing
I was tryna run away from the hurt
I didn't know what I would do
If living felt any worse
I tried the pills and the therapy
And none of it worked i know it kills
But I want you to know
That you ain't the first
Your people can't relate if they
Ain't felt it themselves
It feels like everything they say
When you complain doesn't help
You're sinking deeper every day
When you're awake, you're in hell
You think you changed along the way
But now it's too late to tell
It's like you were rolling with
The thunder and fell
'Cause when the lightning started crashing
I guess you did as well
Your demons kicking down the door
They're never ringing the bell
They just keep tapping on the windows
Till they fall out the cells
I know you're feeling defeated
You try to keep it a secret
Your weakness got you believing you
Need a doctor for treatment
But taking pills ain't convenient
So you keep looking for reasons
To go and flush 'em down the drain
And find the faith to keep breathing
You lay and look at the ceiling all
Night when you should be sleeping
But you've been knee deep in pieces
Of dreams and failed achievements
You keep repeating the moments when
You were beaten and broken
And now you're bleeding emotion, you just
Want someone to hold you, well, me too
'Cause I've been standing on the edge
Trying not to jump i only say it so you know
You aren't the only one
The only thing that killed the pain
Was smoking weed and getting drunk
Before I knew it
I had drank a case a day for eighteen months
I was sleeping with a beer by my bed
Last call was all that I
Could hear in my head
I know there's too many of us
Drinking to try and forget
But who the fuck are we gonna cheers
If we drink till we're dead?
And when you finally get sober
You find the friendships are over
'Cause you don't have nothing in common
If you're not getting loaded
You called 'em brothers, you
Called 'em family
You called 'em your blessings
And now they call, and you ignore the phone
And that's called depression
They try to tell you your
Misery is not an excuse
And you just wish they could spend a
Day tryna walk in your shoes
Just know you're not alone
I feel the same way as you
It isn't you against the world
'cause I'm fighting 'em too
It's like you're losing control until you
Drive right off the road
And then when the vehicle rolls again
You get thrown out the holes in it
Then you notice all of your bones are broken
And all of your clothes are wet
Soaking with gasoline
Light a smoke and explode with it
Till the day that we're ghosts
You'll never be on your own
'Cause I'll be standing in your corner
Till you need me the most
I was put on this planet to
Lift you up when you're low
And you have done the same for me
So I'll be keeping you close, i love y'all