My Secret Oasis

Mom says I’m in my room too much
And that I’m falling out of touch
My best friend is the people on the internet
So tired the slightest jab makes me upset

My room is my secret oasis
I can take myself to my favorite places
Nobody can tell me not to dream
Being passionate doesn’t have to stop after 19

Dad says I need to get a job
I feel like everyone thinks I’m just a slob
It’s hard for me to work a 9 to 5
Makes me feel like I’m better off not being alive

My room is my secrеt oasis
I can take myself to my favorite placеs
Nobody can tell me not to dream
Being a dreamer doesn’t have to stop after 19

It takes energy nowadays to get out of bed
Using liquor to drown out the thoughts in my head
I eat until I feel like I’m going to pop
I compare myself to everything I’m not
I see myself gaining weight in my face
I feel Like a puzzle piece without a place
I look at the worst of my high school bullies
And it seems like they’re all doing better than me
I sit in the bathtub
I sit and think
About if I’d really be missed
If I go under water and use my lungs to drink