Ashes

[Verse:]
Let's take it back to the day that I was born into this earth
My mother said my whole life never sabotage my worth
I'm 18 now and ain't recognized my potential
Until I'm in front of a mic with a dope instrumental
Instead of being flashy I'd rather be an influence
Second-guessed myself, but who's to blame I'm only human
Took my rhymes back to the heart I was tired of following trends
I'd rather have a couple real homies than a lot of friends
I'd rather own the drive in my soul than to lose it to a Benz
I'd rather go swallow my pride and ask forgiveness for my sins
And when my life ends, let my songs live
And every time I lose I'm coming harder to win the same way LeBron did
Remember talking to God it seemed he never responded
I prayed for success cause it was heavy on my conscience
And Swan is the brother that's coming for the crown
For my fam and for my town, regardless I put it down
Since love ain't a resident, I'm keeping my heart separate
And through these tracks it's evident I'm a force to be reckoned with
I'd rather rap on topics in my life that have some relevance
A star was born in 1994 and now it's war
For all these haphazard rappers who claim they killed it before
But now with envy in their hearts cause they know the people want more
It's towards them that I deplore, yeah I'm sure
I comtemplated quittin' til I heard the instrumentals that allured me
And now before me, I see it in a different light
Last night I said I'd quit but it's a different night
A different life to live because I'm older now
A lot of things up on my shoulders now, I gotta be a soldier now
I gotta hold it down, by any means
Cause with the right state of mind I'll conquer anything
Just let me live man, just let me live
If you think that you lost then you already did
I learned that
I wrote this on a day I was discouraged about it all
So I figured I would take it to these verses
It sounds better when it's you, that's what you have to know
They try to shove me into the lane where these other rappers go
Almost fed into it till I realized that the status quo
Wasn't fitted for me so I snapped back to reality
The game is over stocked with copy cats and it just saddens me
So when you see me with a mic know I do it passionately
I'm actually not stopping till these rappers turn to casualties
That's from my heart and soul
That's spiritual and cardio
Disappointed some, I done broke a couple hearts
I made a lot of decisions, a lot of them weren't smart
Man I don't know where to start, but I'm reedy on my mark
And I know that I'm in Gods hands on this adventurous walk
We call life, as long as I think I'm a a winner I'll be alright
The top is waiting for me, thinking 'bout it all night
They doubt I'm the future well then I'm turning on lights
Lately in the booth I been having some long nights
So when it happens and I've done what I imagine
I'll turn impossible possible, leave my opponents lagging
Through these songs and poems hope my goals all established
If my words don't live, might as well turn me to ashes