Butterfly

I just fucked up, I ain't even gonna cap
I got regret on my chest and the world on my back
Are these feelings even real?
I'm conflicted on how I feel
I've been lying to myself
I'm not true to what is real
Imma tell you how it is
I've been feeling fucked up
I've been working so hard
Swear my head gon burn up
I'm not even myself I'm just a vessel working hard
Hole up in my heart I gave myself all these scars

What if this ain't real?
What if this ain't true
I can tell you one thing
I'll pick music over you
Man it's sad to fucking say
But the truth can hurt sometimes
If I didn't have you
I'll have work and that is fine
Man it feels like a flame
In my heart burning up
I hope you can understand
I ain't ever giving up
I'll drop ever fucking thing
For this little big dream
Turtle for life man it's bigger than it seems

Honestly girl I'm so very sorry
But I ain't ever gonna stop
Till my friends drive raris
Imma go on fucking tour
Seeing all the fucking world
Imma send you post cards hope that you are doing swell
I got big dreams
On this big earth
Don't care how you feel
Big dreams
On this big earth
Yeah I'm doing well
Big dreams
On this big earth
I got shit to do
Big dreams
On this big earth
Go find a new dude

What if this ain't real?
What if this ain't true
I can tell you one thing
I'll pick music over you
Man it's sad to fucking say
But the truth can hurt sometimes
If I didn't have you
I'll have work and that is fine
Man it feels like a flame
In my heart burning up
I hope you can understand
I ain't ever giving up
I'll drop ever fucking thing
For this little big dream
Turtle for life man it's bigger than it seems

You can hate me
And that's okay
I just hope now
That you okay
But I'm better now
All alone
All the pain caused
A lot of growth