I’ve Been Looking for Something

I am alone when you’re with me
A festering brain
Sometimes death seems so lovely
I haven’t been the same
I haven’t been sane
I’ve been looking for something

When I dream I am rotting
In gray water
Neither near nor far am I
Sinking
Smothered
Sinking
Smothered

God knows it’s not here
God knows it’s not here
God knows it’s not here
God knows it’s not here

When will I
Lose myself
When will I
Lose myself
When will I
Losе myself
When will I
Lose mysеlf