Soul Searching

Through the highs
And the lows
We will go Soul searching
Through the good and the sad
I will hold your hand

Nobody knows whenever I go through it
Cuz when it happens, shit I just go thru it
Say I'm stupid, the way I cope is so foolish
No help, just let me gone and suffer thru this
God's testing, forever I am your student
But I got questions, why must I always go thru shit ?
He said there's lessons every time I choose to do it
And blessings be patient and you'll get to them
But I'm stressing, no sense feeling like a nu-sense
Sometimes just wanna find where the noose is
And see my babies that never got the chance to live
Sacrificed everything, there's nothing left to give
And in the end I'm the one that's sitting here ruined
Contemplating if its Karma for all of my wrong doing
And in the end I'm the one that's sitting here ruined
Contemplating if its Karma for all of my wrong doing

Through the highs
And the lows
We will go Soul searching
Through the good and the sad
I will hold your hand

I guess I'll finally speak my peace
Reached out and that shit aint even me
Been out my mind so naturally it wanted peace
From everyday to now we don't even speak
Shits changed, and you can never say its me
Over change wow still in disbelief
Drove miles counted thous never took a piece
Had they hands out, mines was there if you needed me
Now you wish I was aborted never needed me
No tears, i rather do it thru the ink
Well aware so history never repeats
Whats fear ? Cuz that aint never been in me
Crazy jealousy in the family
The type of shit to kill the roots in the family tree
And I aint mad, you just made it what it had to be
Shit will have you blind, but the truth will finally set you free
Through the highs
And the lows
We will go Soul searching
Through the good and the sad
I will hold your hand