Self Preservation Is Killing Us All

I haven't had a dry night in longer than I can remember
Made more allowance for decadence than I should admit
Every secret I swallowed like cyanide
Ended up rotting me out from the inside

I always knew it would end this way
I had a master's touch at fucking up pretty much everything
Every dead pan forked tongue delivery
Another fist full of dirt to bury me

Ain't that the way it always goes?
Pulling the ripcord, saving myself
Before anybody knows
Ain't that the way it always goes?
Alone in the life boat saving myself
Before anybody knows

Waving off questions through bullets and consequence
Leaving a clear trail of bodies and evidence
By the time they came to carry me away
I was long gone on a midnight bullet train

Ain't that the way it always goes?
Make a good entrance
A quiet goodbye
Before anybody knows

Ain't that the way it always goes?
Light up the fuses
Excuse myself
Before everyone explodes