august

To be honest august felt like shit
And the months after that, also did
Always regretting my choices
Always wondering
"What would have happened if?"
To be honest I always think
Am I doing what is right for me?
Is this what it is supposed to be?
It has been hard
I have been crying
What is done is done
There is no more lying
I always hurt the ones I love
It has been hard
You have been crying
What is done is done
There is no more trying
You always hurt the ones you love
And then i tried to justify you a time or two
But what i do seems never enough to you
I am no longer hurt for the things you do
Just sad I have lost half a year trying to solve you
Betrayed by my best friend
Diagnosed with bpd
Is a little of attention too much for you to give me?
I guess I am just asking for too much
It has been hard
I have been crying
What is done is done
There is no more lying
I always hurt the ones I love
It has been hard
You have been crying
What is done is done
There is no more trying
You always hurt the ones you love
They told me i should of have processed the feeling
Being able to explain it without bleeding
Maybe I have my own times for healing