The Puzzle

It's been a typical fall in Portland
But I don't think it rained at all today
Still, it feels like I've been
Wearing a wet pair of jeans;
Something is rubbing me
The wrong way

I still can't believe all that I've seen

Lately I've been anything but direct
So can I just spell this out
Or will I lose some respect?
I've been having doubts
About the last few years
In case you don't like blunt
Let me make this less clear

I've been picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on
And from what I see from here
There is no point in carrying on
I've been picking apart
Picking apart all night long
And suddenly, my biggest fear:
I'll never stop picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on

I've got a job to do
But my well's run dry
My mind is wandering now
Like a lazy eye
I'm kicking water uphill
My gains are so small
Elevated by a stage
I still feel two feet tall...

But I suppose that's the point of it all;
So we can get back up
When we lose footing and fall
I'm a little embarrassed
My cheeks kinda burn
It seems the lesson I wrote
Is one I've still yet to learn

I still can't believe all that I've seen
I can't believe who I used to be

I've been picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on
And from what I see from here
There is no point in carrying on
I've been picking apart
Been picked apart all night long
And suddenly, my biggest fear:
I'll never stop picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on

I've been picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on
And from what I see from here
There is no point in carrying on
I've been picking apart
Picking apart all night long
And suddenly, my biggest fear:
I'll never stop picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on

...been picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on
Only one thing's become quite clear:
I see no point in carrying on
I've been picking apart
Been picked apart all night long
Suddenly, my biggest fear:
I'll never stop picking apart
The puzzle I've been working on