Crutch

Jumping ship, crashing into the sea
Wasted away, numbing everything
Bloodshot eyes, I can't see clearly
Self destruction, chasing this feeling.

When will I learn?
When will I learn?

Inhale the poison to balance the pain.
Sleepless nights, scrounging for my next fix
Corroded insides, but still I stay selfish.
Breathe out, paranoia settles in.
Bittersweet burn that fills my lungs.
Face down with the damage done.

I've destroyed everything,
Just to feel you again... again...
Why can't you hear their cries?
Euphoria masquerades as company
Drifts away

Up for weeks, demons encouraging.
Trembling, trembling!
I am lost, and there is no saving me.
No saving me

Falling fast, I'm spiraling to no end.
Longing to feel nothing ever again.
Blacked out, no control
Befriending my crutch!

I've been wondering can I keep on, or will I lose my soul?
The warmth I feel when It courses through, will I ever come to?
Loss of consciousness
Facing reality was never my strong suit.

Inhale the poison to balance the pain.
Sleepless nights, scrounging for my next fix
Corroded insides, but still I stay selfish.
Breathe out, paranoia settles in.
Bittersweet burn that fills my lungs
Face down with the damage done.

Dances with the devil and His next of kin,
There's no penance for all my sins.
Jumping ship, crashing into the sea
Self destruction, chasing this feeling.