My Way

Yeah
I've been tryna get my way
Drivin' fast on the highway
Lights passing by
Feelings not alright
Not okay

Uh, as I sit here in a quiet nation
Feeling some mental degradation
Cuz I've been overrating myself
And not taking care of myself
Lil boy, remember you gotta be humble
Uh, tripping over my thoughts, it's a fumble
As I stumble over old emotions resurfacing
Past feelings, got me curdling
Don't know if i'm hurtling, towards my doom
Is it inevitable?

Yeah
I've been tryna get my way
Drivin fast on the highway
Lights passing by
Feelings not alright
Not okay

What games do you wanna play?
What pills do you wanna take?
Anything to fix your heartache
Anything to fix my heartache

Yeah
You tryna fix this heart ache and pain
But I remember, you was conflicted
Uh
Yeah I'm still conflicted
Battling my mind, it might take my life
Please, take the torment it brought
To no end, my thoughts
As I contemplate my reality
Paint a picture-perfect finality
But now I sacrificed my vitality
I worked so hard to feel alive
But at times, it still feels like I'm 6 feet under

Been locked in my headspace
No rest days, for like 2 weeks
But no chest pain
Just headache
Cuz lowkey, everyone's fake

As I write to you, the demons come back
My voice cracks, 3 am insomniac
My thoughts get to prancing
I put myself in a trance
And I brace myself for what's to come
I shut the world out, no one can hear me shout
Deep down always felt like I never fit in
Didn't really belong, kept praying somebody prove me wrong
Thought I was past that point, but it's been hiding all along
Somebody please take me out, I'm tired
But I can't trust you, cuz that's how I'm wired
To carry everyone with a pinch of hate
Just incase they turn around and show the fangs of a snake

This project was made in 336 hours, otherwise 2 weeks
Where I invested my heart and power to perfect an emotional boutique
For you all to critique as I develop my inner artiste