Fiancé

I'm having trouble finding the path
I think its cause you've been messing with me in your wrath
Don't think I can drive while I'm behind your dash
Board of all the shit you give me
Baby it's just so sickening
Yes you I love the things that I hate
That's why in the mirror I said that I love you
Be cranking up emotions my pops can't create
Then unleashing some heat call me jack in the box boo

I don't know what to believe
You saying that I should leave
You wanna tell me your grief
I never knew you could heave
Blame all your fuckups on me
You should pop a cold xan
Take a chill pill
Cause you hot damn
But we're going downhill
I put our love in better hands
Goodwill
So I could lose all of our baggage on the treadmill

You told me you don't care much what I have to say
You're blending in with other exes I'm in disarray
You told me you don't care much what I have to say
And yet you expected me to call you my fiancé

I spent the fourth of July writing music
Dropped a beat first don't follow the rubric
Mom and dad said my dreams seem lucid
Save the world feeling blue champion's tunic
New shit I've been filling a void
Rewriting verses in September, got me feeling annoyed
Friends got me working hard like I've been unemployed
Recording and dance studios kept up my joy
I'm so sorry so sorry apologies ain't enough
But I love cotton candy colors sky blue with the puff
Like I'm jiggling and grooving never wanna be cuffed
I'm only 15 wondering if I'm enough
I'm pondering my state if I'll make it out alive
Do you drive got a permit? nah I've been writing these 5
Songs sharing all my grace since nobody shed theirs
Shed tears for my homies with no parent and no heirs

You told me you don't care much what I have to say
You're blending in with other exes I'm in disarray
You told me you don't care much what I have to say
And yet you expected me to call you my fiancé,
Fiancé