Popular Monster

[Verse 1]
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I’m not sure if I should say this, fuck, I’ll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I’m going through a phase
I dunno if it’s a phase, I just wanna feel okay
Yeah, I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fuckin’ phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it’s prolly cuz my demons simultaneously rage
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

[Chorus]
Cuz I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out
I’m a liar, I’m a cheater, I’m a nonbeliever
I’m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular, popular monster

[Verse 2]
I think I’m going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I’m in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressin’, every second that I waste
Is another second closer to a blessing I won’t take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it’s not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I needa change a couple things cuz something is missing
And if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave
I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

[Chorus]
Cuz I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out
I’m a liar, I’m a cheater, I’m a nonbeliever
I’m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular, popular freaking monster

[Bridge]
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We’re sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a God that you don’t believe
You're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So, the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your God now?

[Chorus]
Cuz I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out
I’m a liar, I’m a cheater, I’m a nonbeliever
I’m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular, popular monster

[Outro]
I’m a liar, I’m a cheater, I’m a nonbeliever
I’m a popular popular monster