On Deaf Ears

I tried, tried , tried
Up all hours of the night
Telling me what I want to hear but you lied, lied, lied
Out here looking stupid over a girl that's made it clear she doesn't want me, but she provokes me, she's invoking all of the times that I had her choking
Man, I tried

I tried, tried, tried for real

Why'd you do me like that?
Broke my heart, don't do me like that
King to your queen, can't believe what I seen - the hand we dealt would've yielded a jack
At some point
So stressed, can't spark no joint
People wonder why I'm devoid
That's my choice

Pure money fours, Air Force ones
Mama raised an ole gullible son
Sometimes I stare up at the sun with no shades, deep-frying with no bun

The bun's been burnt a long time ago
My heart's been hurt a long time ago
I don't resort to drugs to cope with my problems, I sip tea not blueberry faygo
Play though
Manipulation, play-dough
Incarcerated in love, no need to make a trip out to Clay-Co
I can't cope but I drive the boat to the shore
SZA'ing with Love Galore
Little trust, yeah a little more
To love someone is a chore
Man I swear to God
But I'm here

Pouring out my heart but you won't listen
Looking at the stars but I'm not wishing
Overflowing potential no longer brimming, I swear I'm sinning
Pessimistic
Once, man, I was optimistic but that optimism has grown resistant to all of my persistence

Here I am
Heart's broken again
Here I am with no girl or a clown car of a support system to call my friends
Time together sure came to an end
You want to pretend?
Try to blend?
Make amends?
Shake my head

I tried, tried , tried
Up all hours of the night
Telling me what I want to hear but you lied, lied, lied
Out here looking stupid over a girl that's made it clear she doesn't want me, but she provokes me, she's invoking all of the times that I had her choking
Man, I tried

Did me so bad, my trust effed up
Did me so wrong, my soul so corrupt
Take a girl out then lie to her face, just to end the date so short, so abrupt
I'm stuck
A rock in a hard place with no face 'cause it's covered by shame
Different tendencies, not the same
Man I wish I didn't have heartbreak
But I do, I do, I do, I do
Wish I could leave it all in rearview
Wish I was woke, I've failed to come to
Man, what a curse it was to love you

But see, they don't speak on red flags that's why it's a red flag
Picking up on everything they lack
The crazy part is, it probably wouldn't change nothing so the red flag might as well be green
Like grass
Rockin' Robin sure put me on blast
Told me not to trust a big butt and smile
Learned that lesson after a long while
At least I was smart, don't have no child
Child support would've caused me to grab a glock to the head, I would've went pow
Oh wow
How about now?

Wasn't really seeing me way back then
Wasn't really peeping me way back when
Yeah, I really bossed up so ever since
Don't play like you're innocent
I could write a book on all the -ish that I know
But I won't
'Cause it falls on deaf ears