Small Talk

I could get whoever I wanted if I tried
And by that I mean
Change who I am in and outside

I could be whatever I wanted to be
And by that I mean
Absolutely nothing
Because there's nothing that I want to be
Except maybe asleep
Somewhere deep in a dream

I could love whoever I wanted to love
And by that I mean
I'm afraid I'll never be enough

I could fix myself if I tried hard enough
And by that I mean
If I could give up, I'd give it all up

I could be something great if I wanted to be
And by that I mean
I find myself and everyone else so boring

I'm unamused, I'm unfazed
All of the weeks keep blending together these days
And I keep running out of things to say
Can't find the time to form a response to relay
My mind's working too slow to decode
And now the conversation has nowhere to go
Small talk is small talk, it always ends soon
Lately I've only been speaking when I should really learn not to