Siege of Self
Gene Meyer, Jack McBride, Gobinda Senchury
I tell myself I’m getting better
But at night
I still dream of the terror
Like a snuff film I can only feel
But never see
I tell myself I’m getting stronger
But it still hits me
Like a gray bullet to the chest
Catatonic in the basement again
I tell myself to breathe
As I tap dance between the mortars
And live my life
Forever under siege