Holidays

I wanna start this off by saying that I'm grateful I'm living
And I welcome the light of new days With a merry lil ribbon
But I can't wrap the fact my heart is Black
All this pain I been feelin
Holidays have changed the more we Age
Found myself reminiscing about the season changes
Feeling anxious
Oh so patient for Christmas days
Family stays, my cousins waitin
I was so Ecstatic to see their faces
But things have changed, It's not the Same
Some people seen the pearly gates
Some family ran and stayed away
Some of my friends have changed and turn to snake
But My, life goes on, I'm remaining Strong, I'll just run along
I face my wrongs just like Cheech & Chong, cause I'm smokin strong
I fight my demons, don't need no Beef from unholy heathens
I feel I'm fiendin, but what I need in My dreaming sequels

I want my passion back
My faith and trust intact
Too much to ask for that
I'm roaming in my head, can't find a bed like an insomniac
My heart under attack, I throw the Flag
It seems there's never slack
But some of us can't handle that
When you feel you can't who got Your back?