BFF

I still look upon the riverflow of memories galore
The inseparable days where time was to explore
Because what else was time ever for
But it's not like it was, not anymore
My view is slowly fading as my fingertips go too
I know I'm not past saving, I need you to know it too
I don't quite recall my name, can you just remind me who
Who it was who sacrificed it all for you

I just can't seem to win more than just loss
And I don't know if they're losing me or if they're leaving me behind
Loneliness is a task that I am left to fulfil
A role I didn't want to play, but the part is mine
I don't quite know what is the case
I fear that I have been replaced
Except you can't replace what wasn't really there
Their resentment grows with time
It branches off into my mind
And soon enough, all of this becomes mine

I never signed up for any of this, it was an easier sell
We were meant to stick together through the worst of it, through hell
I would always help you climb the chain like climbing a shelf
But when I needed your help, I just fell

You can't just up and leaving me
I need you to believe in me
I know no one is grieving me
I hate what I know
I still have life to learn
When is it my turn

I don't want to go
I don't want to go