Moving

How do I get up?
I’ve been thinking about the others
And shunning myself
And if it persists, I won’t get better

But I can’t just let myself go run free
I have to take control of my own me
How can I forgive and not forget
When recalling a death sentence?

What’s to become of me?
I’m so uncomfortable in this skin
And I think that I should be
Because this skin is haunted
What’s to become of me?
I’m so uncomfortable in this skin
And I think that I should be
Because this skin is haunted

It’s time to move out
I’ve gotta go and find my own way
There is no “around”
I’m jumping into the darkness today

It’s funny how they ask me to talk
Let them know what something’s wrong
But when I open up and say it
They act like I’m struggling the wrong way
Did you want it to look prettier?
Did you want it to shine like GLITTER?
Well, where I come from, things get pretty ugly
So don’t hold onto your expectations of me

What’s to become of me?
I’m so uncomfortable in this skin
And I think that I should be
Because this skin is haunted
What’s to become of me
I’m so uncomfortable in this skin
And I think that I should be
Because this skin is haunted

Feels like yesterday but it’s been years
Moving in circles because I couldn’t learn
I wanted to apologize again
I know I told you I was sorry but I was still sick when you talked to me
I probably said some things that didn’t make sense
I was ignorant and blind, thinking I was never wrong
And if you think I lost care or forgot, I could never
My mistakes follow me wherever I go
I’ll keep them with me and take them to the grave
You will carry them more than I will
And I wish I could do it all over
But I can’t, and nothing I do will make it okay or better
I don’t speak these words looking for pity
Only to speak the truth
You’re never expected to show forgiveness
You never deserved what I gave you
I was up in space for far too long
I think I’m ready to come back to earth
Please tell me someone’s still waiting at the door
Because I can’t run anymore

What’s to become of me?
I’m so uncomfortable in this skin
And I think that I should be
Because this skin is haunted
I’m showing you the demons I’ve let in
I won’t absolve, I’ll combat these sins
I want to know this life I promise to live
You’ll see I’ve still got some kind of skin

‘Cause I’m not alone
I’m coming home

I won’t ever be so hurtful again, you see
I won’t ever be so hurtful again, you see