I Promise I’m Trying

I'm not really sure if my
Words make sense to you
But I can't really find
Any other way to form
These feelings into cubes
And sort them in my mind

The negative thoughts go on the left
And the happy things on the right
And there's a little corner
Saved just for you

Please let me know if you change your mind
Cause inside I'm falling
And I need you to pull me out of this decline
I realize how hard on you this must seem
But trust me
When I say it's far, far worse for me

Please, please be here for me dear
Cause I've never needed a friend more
And I can't stress enough how much it
Means to me that you're trying
And I don't mind if you can't
Hold me like you used to
Cause I've never hated myself more
But this is just a bump in the
Road and I promise I'm trying

Give me a moment to get my cards in line
Cause I'm still trying to figure out
In what kind of order I should set them out
If there was a way to
Explain everything without a word
I'd have a full house right
Now without a doubt
I'm trying to tear the wool from your eyes
But a part of me wants to let you be
Cause then you wouldn't see
What I've become
I'm trying to shout but no sound comes out
It's like we're in a dream state
But I should've woken up, woken up by now

Please, please be here for me dear
Cause I've never needed a friend more
And I can't stress enough how much it
Means to me that you're trying
And I don't mind if you can't
Hold me like you used to
Cause I've never hated myself more
But this is just a bump in the
Road and I promise I'm trying