In My Head 2

It's been over a year since I wrote the first one and a lot has happened since then
So I thought I'd do it again and see where it took me
Here it is
When everything first started
I was kinda broken hearted
I felt I was disregarded
And left to be the target
Of the jokes made by the deceitful
Who before I saw as my equals
But now I see them as evil
Hoping their words won't be lethal
I never wanted to get into rap, it seemed that it wasn't for me
I was never looking for any of the attention or for any of the glory
But I felt that it was the only way to tell my side of the story
And now I'm feeling anything but celebratory
Didn't fully comprehend that there'd be consequences or repercussions
Now I'm left hating all of the times where I had to explain why I was just feeling like nothing
As a matter of fact, I was feeling much worse
Kuz I was attacked for what I put in the verse
Which led to all the disdain that people had for me causing me to go and converse
I spent so much time by myself avoiding talking to people the best I could
I no longer wanted to open up keep my thoughts inside where I thought they would
Stay away from the people who never knew me aside from the guy that withstood 
All the drama that was caused and all the problems that had occurred
I got those demons in my head
The ones I want gone
The ones I want dead
The ones I wanna hide
By locking them deem inside
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
I got those demons in my head
The ones I can't fight
They're showing up tonight
I wanna make it all right
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
Everything was going good for me until I stupidly took a few missteps 
My mind was running all over the place my thoughts were becoming way too complex 
I didn't wanna worry about anything I didn't wanna worry about seeing success 
That's when I let my guard down and I didn't pay attention to common sense 
I should've just left like I normally did 
Go to where I had commonly hid 
But no I had to stay there and gamble with something I unwillingly bid 
Until I ended up losing it all and eventually going down for it 
The smell of mint still in the air, I was forced to dismount and forfeit 
But through all of it I had come to understand that I was beginning to go down a dark road 
I was losing grip of the helping hand and I was starting to feel that I was somewhat alone 
Pushing away what was important to me I was dragged into a screwed up conflict
Words were fired like bullets until someone ratted and to it all I had to restrict 
Its astonishing how they took something with good intentions and turned it into a mockery
They refer to me by it like an insult when it was originally for the contrary
And now I hear it everywhere I turn, I wish everyone could forget
That stupid name that I had come up with and now that I have come to repent 
I got those demons in my head
The ones I want gone
The ones I want dead
The ones I wanna hide
By locking them deem inside
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
I got those demons in my head
The ones I can't fight
They're showing up tonight
I wanna make it all right
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
There have been so many times where I wanted to wave the white flag
Where I've thought about giving up because I couldn't take much more
So many nights where I've laid awake wondering if I have the strength to continue
If I can push through this pit of misery and loneliness 
I've been hurt so many times I've started to act like I don't care when inside I'm actually screaming
I'm looking for a reason to keep myself going 
And I'm looking for a way to get rid of all of these demons
I got those demons in my head
The ones I want gone
The ones I want dead
The ones I wanna hide
By locking them deem inside
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
I got those demons in my head
The ones I can't fight
They're showing up tonight
I wanna make it all right
I got those demons in my head
(Those demons in my head)
I got those demons in my head
The ones I want gone
The ones I want dead
The ones I wanna hide
By locking them deem inside
I got those demons in my head
I got those demons in my head
The ones I can't fight
They're showing up tonight
I wanna make it all right
I got those demons in my head