Not Good Enough

I text you every day
I text you every day
I text you every day
Babe c'mon
I text you every day
I just want a response

I text you everyday praying for a response
Hate the space between my fingers as I walk by the pond
Despise myself including all the qualities I lack
Brain crumbles in your thoughts cause I can't stay in tact
That's a fact
I always got your mind on the past
Always take the blame when it's running too fast
You're the first on my mind but to you I am last
Not good enough I got that feeling masked
Let's face it
I never was
I never have been
Want to be wanted by you but to you it's like I am a has been
Lonely stuck in your head yet don't want me as a friend
Wanna take my car pull the wheel around the bend
Just do it
I can't
Type a lonely text and press send but you call it a rant
I wanna enhance
Who it is that we are
Not feeling good enough it leaves a hefty scar
A nasty rip in my heart

I called you yesterday never gave it a chance
Reminiscing on your touch it's like I'm stuck in a trance
Analyzing every fight I can never keep my stance
Wishing now I had the wisdom just to help us advance
I don't know
It seems like I can never do right
Insecure midnight wars that always end in a fight
While we lay back to back as we sleep through the night
There's no need for the darkness when I'm worried by fright
Let's face it
I don't get it
I know I never will
All that we are is a little thing I chased for the thrill
Staring right at the bliss hope a genie grants your wish
I'd take a shot in the dark but I'm scared that I'd miss
I want this
C'mon
I want to make a statement though I know I'd be wrong
I just wanna belong
As a partner with you
This life that we've chosen it is meant for two
All we need is a clue